As I hit my 36th birthday tomorrow and think about the new year, I have already decided that 2019 WILL BE MY BEST YEAR YET. It’s done. I get to choose how to look at everything and make it the BEST or worst.Continue reading
When Danny was in the depths of one of his depressive stages he said “if anything I’m learning here can help my kids it will be worth it.”Continue reading
There were some people I needed to forgive along this journey.
It was tempting to hang on to my anger and not forgive certain people, but I realized that when I withhold forgiveness to punish someone with my emotions, I am only punishing myself.
About five years ago my husband stopped buying me presents on holidays.
If he did give me something he would wing some sort of gift like 5 minutes before giving it to me—it was pretty obvious, ha!
The phrase “my marriage is complicated” is a thought.
An optional thought.Continue reading
I didn’t want to feel trapped in marriage, I wanted to choose it.Continue reading
“Little trauma can look like the side effects of not making the volleyball team in high school. Ultimately, it can take the face of anxiety, depression, etc.Continue reading
I felt 100% sure that he needed to hear everything I had to say. I’m sure I wanted him to change something about his actions. He may not have agreed but in that moment held space for me.Continue reading
Have you ever heard of the drama triangle? “Me? Yeah right I’m not dramatic.” This mentality can sneak up on us—I know it has on me.Continue reading
My husband sometimes told me he had suicidal thoughts and leave for a run that same day. I would think thoughts like “I don’t know if he’s going to come home.”Continue reading